i feel like crap. i was supposed to go to disneyland with chrys and matt today, but i can't. too short notice for my parents and i didn't have enough info. but i feel really bad. they sounded kinda bummed. but i dunno what to type or say or anything. i understand why i can't go and i'm not mad at my parents.... i just, dunno. i feel like shit for some reason. really, really shitty. but i can't do anything about it..... so i'm just gonna sulk in my room. i don't want to talk to anybody right now.... i can't think of anything to say. As far as i know i'm not even that disappointed about not going... but i guess i am if i can't control myself right now...... so fuck. yay world, i hate you!