Crazy Pet Psychic

"We never get over them, we just get used to living without them."

Well, if that isn't the truth in so many ways.

Ah yes.

Life is back on track! I have work I have things to do! My problems are dealt with (at least for the time being). And generally I am feeling better than I have been. Talked to Florida Chris today, and it was a great conversation. It was something I needed and I am way happy to report that he is doing very well, or at least is on his way to be. I am on a hunt for something to put as my background..... mrah!! :) I am in a good mood.... even though there are things I am trying to work out in the back of my head. But I am happy. Nice'n'happy!

And so it goes

One more for the road.... my new Favorite song. :)

And So It Goes- Billy Joel

In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose

But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break

And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break

And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

ewww.

changed things. Made it easier for me to have it my way. Apparently my html skillz no longer count. :/ But I need a picture or two to personalize this beast!

And so it ends.

My mopey, icky state. I am out! I am happy! It didn't happen the way I imagined.... but whan has anything happened like I think it will...? This morning when I thought it would be funny if I made a rescue my first day back and did...? nah. :)

I've come to terms with some things in my life, and will more or less learn how to accept them later on. Not that I want to really..... but that's how things are and I know that in the end it really doesn't matter. I mean, I got what I want anyway, who cares as to the reasons why?

Please don't be confused, I am not being facetious or sarcastic. I am really happy with the way things turned out. Amused a bit as well. But there is always something in the back of your head nagging... and if you don't, it's because you have a real person to do it for you. :p

And in other news, an old pal of mine who I though was hard-core trying to erase me from their life has been initiating some conversation. Freaking me out a bit, but in the most awesomest of ways. :D Good to have you back bud!

What a time to choose...

I finally remembered my blog. And what a time to remember! I'm fairly sure no one checks here since I haven't posted since last December.... so I feel safe venting a bit. Even if someone wanders across this page, I'm sure it will be after this is in the open. Keeping that in mind however, I will only be talking about my feelings here without the cause or reason. I still feel like I need to protect something, maybe just for my peace of mind, but still. You'll probably be able to piece somethings together without the details.

I am distraught and my mind is asea. I don't know how to think about it anymore. I am unclear as to where this is going. I was smart not to believe that the other night was the end of it. I am a much smarter person than that, and I know these things will take time to heal or sever, which ever happens to happen. It doesn't help that I feel totally alone one this.... I can neither be in that state of mine, nor can I be in my state of mind. Either one is too difficult to deal with. I am clinging to hopes and beliefs that I hope aren't ungrounded, that I hope are well warranted and will see me to where I need (and hopefully to where I want) to be.

There is a letter I am writing, and I hope it is a letter I never have to send. Or maybe I will send it anyway, if things turn out in my favor, which I am not sure what is right now. There are valid points from both arguments and my intermittent and persuasive nature does nothing but fail me now.

I hate this. I want it to go away.