geez. I'm like, way to emo for my face.

I dont know what happened... my day started out really good. Infact, theres nothing in my day, so far that I can tell, that I could classify as depressing, or sad, or stressful or anything. And yet here I find myself a litte of all of those, thinking negative thoughts for no apparent reason. Maybe geneology is kicking in. Boy, do i hate biology. But I dunno, I think I've actually had an acceptually good day. I did the stadium run(mmm.... my knees have been funny all day! I dont know if it's good funny or bad, guess we'll find out) and then I got to cox because Carla is out of town for a fmaily emergency(maybe it's sympathy emotions...?) which was great. Lauren was my stroke and we were in the Norris, and it was just like my first time on the water..... :D Then a heaping 5, count 'em 5 rode our bikes to school together. That was a lot of fun, you know it's the crew gals coming when you hear the screaming, lemme tell you. And then I fele liek I did well on my history quiz too, it was a lot easier than I thought, I've taken remarkably awesome notes so far and I feel like I did well.(hehehe... we all know how my test scores turn out if I 'feel' like I did well.... maybe I've finally caught on an am not oblivious to how I really do on tests...) Granted I started feeling crappy before that class... and then I headed off for Critical thinking (something that definitly causes depression) but I ended up feeling a little better in that class today... we've beent alking about art and darned if I didn't finally get what we were talking about. Art as arty is simply art. NOthing more, nothing less, not representation(re-presentation) no symbolism, just is. Like Popeye's catch phrase: "I am what I am and that's all that I am." Leave it to me to be confused about an grounded concept until it's explained as an abstract concept as a grounded concept. :/ I have no idea what I just wrote either.... But Ad Reinhart's Black canvases cleared up a lot for me, at leat in the ways of being. I think I want to try painting soon. I dont have any experience with oils, but maybe I can find some canvas that acrylics wont hate. I miss my art. :( Maybe thats what I need, a project.... hrrmmmm I have my parents 20th aniversary coming up along with some other stuff.... perhaps it's time I made a Jo-ann's and Michaels run... :)

"I like to ride my bicycle, I like to ride my bike...."

"BIcycle (race), BIcycle (race)!"
Oh I heart Queen. I heart them good.

My bicycle and I, on the other hand, had quite the disagreement this monring. I wanted to get off my bike while looking rather coordinated and cool, he, on the other hand, did not. The result? Some rather nasty looking raspberry-type bruises on my left thigh. They dont hurt, they just look real bad. I'm way smooth I know.... you know how they say you never forget how to ride a bike...? That may be true, but how to get offa one is a totally differnt story. In front of an entire street filled with people driving themselves to work...... I was actaully quite amused by the cliche-ness of it all. :p Leave it to me.....

I also learned today that I am definitly not a port, but a very distinctive starboard. There I shall stay, away from Kay and near Lauren Landers, whose way funnier than anyone else anyways. :p

Oh Boy

A bit frustrating in the boat today. NOt just for me, but I think everyone was dealing with it better than I could. I went out for the second time with the varsity boat today. I was going to ringe Kay's neck, she would not stop talking to me! Carla is going to talk to her baout it because basically that's the cox's job, and I'll say something to her about it too, because it was just throwing me off.

I decided to ride my bike to school today from my house, and boy, was that ever terrifying. No bike lanes near the downtown area, which is apparently where I live. I managed to wrangle a ride back from my bud from Brooks whose in my geo lab class. That was way awesome.

I also learned that I am currently unemployed. Remember me working at Cold Stone? Apparently it no longer exists. Good thing I found out before I went to tell them i was availiable to work again. Why they didn't tell me I dont know, but it saves me the greif of quitting. So far I have never had to resign from a job, either they assume I'm not coming back or they go out of business. Hmm. LIfe works in mysteriours ways.

Now the major dilema of having to find another job.... again.... there goes my fall plan. :P Welp, better get all over that newspaper and get myself out there.... perhaps I'll get sweet deal as a private lesson instructor... that's be awesome. we'll see.

AHHHH!

I'm in Varsity/Novice Limbo! Who am I?! What do I do!??!?

The days when I am home...

Oh boy! What a weekend I have had so far! Came home friday, was locked out of my house for 2 hours because I forgot my key in Long Beach..... smooth. Then I got to substitute for my mom at my brothers football game. I was on the feild taping. Those guys were out to toget; I was almost taken out 4 or 5 times! zi was amused. Then the Snapper broke his feemer... ick. I was interested though, there was an ambulance and paramedics and I was narrating to this Lady Collet I was taping with. I was super interested in the things they were doing. "OH! It's a spinal injury! They're not moving the head!" heeheehee.... leave it to the lifeguard. Then towards the later half of the evening I finally made it home and went over to John's house. Fixing a fire alarum with a kichen knife..... smart boy. :D His sister amuses me... she got a tatoo of her name (which is also mine) and they joked all night about how much she liked me dating him because she got a tatoo of my name on her arm. After Military Chris showed up and I passed out on him and his couch I headed home, only to remember that I didn't have a hosue key. :/ Spent the better half of 2am trying to wake my dad up. Woah! My dad endded up feeling bad. Go figure.

Saturday I spent the better half of my morning finishing that damn baby blanket. Met Kenna there, and we enjoyed our time not knowing anyone together. We endded up talking to Katie's (the pregnant girl from my work) parents and brother. They're cool people. It was awesome. We had fun. Didn't relize how much I missed that girl. Definitly something I need to work on, friendship with Kenna! Then my dad took me shopping in Miramesa, bought me lotsa spandex (woo!) Then I went over to John's again to hang with M.Chris and Nick. Those boys make me smile. Then Katie and Robin showed up and I was finally told what was happening so I wasn't confused anymore. Then they left, and the boys and I sat outside while I froze. Then I slept while we took Nick home and they got ice cream. Then I passed out again while we watched TV.... obviously I need more sleep. :P

and today.... I have yet another full day ahead of me. Storage, metting aunts, BBQ's, driving back to the LBC.... yay! Then sleep early and crew in the morning! I need to work on that whole homework thing to think about it......