geez. I'm like, way to emo for my face.

I dont know what happened... my day started out really good. Infact, theres nothing in my day, so far that I can tell, that I could classify as depressing, or sad, or stressful or anything. And yet here I find myself a litte of all of those, thinking negative thoughts for no apparent reason. Maybe geneology is kicking in. Boy, do i hate biology. But I dunno, I think I've actually had an acceptually good day. I did the stadium run(mmm.... my knees have been funny all day! I dont know if it's good funny or bad, guess we'll find out) and then I got to cox because Carla is out of town for a fmaily emergency(maybe it's sympathy emotions...?) which was great. Lauren was my stroke and we were in the Norris, and it was just like my first time on the water..... :D Then a heaping 5, count 'em 5 rode our bikes to school together. That was a lot of fun, you know it's the crew gals coming when you hear the screaming, lemme tell you. And then I fele liek I did well on my history quiz too, it was a lot easier than I thought, I've taken remarkably awesome notes so far and I feel like I did well.(hehehe... we all know how my test scores turn out if I 'feel' like I did well.... maybe I've finally caught on an am not oblivious to how I really do on tests...) Granted I started feeling crappy before that class... and then I headed off for Critical thinking (something that definitly causes depression) but I ended up feeling a little better in that class today... we've beent alking about art and darned if I didn't finally get what we were talking about. Art as arty is simply art. NOthing more, nothing less, not representation(re-presentation) no symbolism, just is. Like Popeye's catch phrase: "I am what I am and that's all that I am." Leave it to me to be confused about an grounded concept until it's explained as an abstract concept as a grounded concept. :/ I have no idea what I just wrote either.... But Ad Reinhart's Black canvases cleared up a lot for me, at leat in the ways of being. I think I want to try painting soon. I dont have any experience with oils, but maybe I can find some canvas that acrylics wont hate. I miss my art. :( Maybe thats what I need, a project.... hrrmmmm I have my parents 20th aniversary coming up along with some other stuff.... perhaps it's time I made a Jo-ann's and Michaels run... :)