Okay, so I'm done talking about other people, because really, there's nothing much I can do. I'll talk to them about it, but I'm done rambling on. I think.
2 races this weekend. Both look rather promising.... But I'm still a fatty cox. I think someone's sabotaging my food supply, errr.
OI... need to find a place to do a smog check....bleh. I hate registration. I don't like being in charge of this, I don't want to have to deal with car crap!
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Today in Counseling
was a really good day. I hdidn't have my paper to turn in, and I hadn't read any of the chapter, although I am jumping on that now that I know what they are about.
and they are about relationships
I thoughg it was strangly coincidental that my couseling class would being having their section on realtionships right now. Not in relation to the semester, but in relation to my life. Todya we focused on relationships that were couple based. (borfriend/girlfriend, boyfriend/boyfriend, girlfriend/girlfriend, however you roll) and everything hit home for me.
Now don't think I had some sort of epiphany about boys or anything, or that now I'm all over the guys, becauce my veiw of relationships is hardly changed, infact it is more clarified.
To be honest, I've been disappointed in those friends of mine and their relationshiply ventures, adn I've thus far tried not to but my nose in unless I was invited in. After today though, I can clearly state why I am dissapointe din whom, and mostly it's a misunderstanding on their part of communicaiton and growth.
The 2 big ideas from today were:
1. you dont want to be dating the same person today in 20 years
2. you need to get rid of the static with the communication.
My teacher asked asked us if 2 boys would voice thei opinion on relationships based off of the infor form the book and lecture, and then 2 girls. I ennded up being girl #1, but what had I to talk about relationships? The only one I had lasted but a few months and didn't have much density, right? well, I talked about you guys. You guys who, unknowingly have been hurting me with the way that you have been treating each other. Don't get me wrong, I love to listen to your problems and comfort you, but it pains me to see what you put each other through. There is such needless berating of each other, and it tears me heart apart. Although you may be my 'best friend,' I still have a strong connection with your significant other. I care for you all so much more than you know, and hearing about someone baggin on somebody else, or not telling the other pertinent information, or withholding information, it just hurts.
Anyway, up until this point, I didn't know how to classify your actions and behaviors, I didn't know where they came from, and I couldn't for the life of me figure out why you could have something, adn i couldn't, but I've finally figured that out too. I now know why your relationships didn't work or aren't working and I knwo Why I havn't had one.
Me? I'm picky, adn that's that. Not about looks, or job, or friends or anything; I'm picky about a healthy relationship. I don't want to get into anything unless I can see that I am not going to have to sacrifice who I am for someone else, see that I can grow with this person, and someone who will retain who they are while they are with me. I don't want to date the same perosn today that I was with yesterday. I want them to grow qith me but also grow individually. I want them to have their own friends while not making me an alien. But most of all, I certainly dont want to be dating a male version of myself.
I thoughg it was strangly coincidental that my couseling class would being having their section on realtionships right now. Not in relation to the semester, but in relation to my life. Todya we focused on relationships that were couple based. (borfriend/girlfriend, boyfriend/boyfriend, girlfriend/girlfriend, however you roll) and everything hit home for me.
Now don't think I had some sort of epiphany about boys or anything, or that now I'm all over the guys, becauce my veiw of relationships is hardly changed, infact it is more clarified.
To be honest, I've been disappointed in those friends of mine and their relationshiply ventures, adn I've thus far tried not to but my nose in unless I was invited in. After today though, I can clearly state why I am dissapointe din whom, and mostly it's a misunderstanding on their part of communicaiton and growth.
The 2 big ideas from today were:
1. you dont want to be dating the same person today in 20 years
2. you need to get rid of the static with the communication.
My teacher asked asked us if 2 boys would voice thei opinion on relationships based off of the infor form the book and lecture, and then 2 girls. I ennded up being girl #1, but what had I to talk about relationships? The only one I had lasted but a few months and didn't have much density, right? well, I talked about you guys. You guys who, unknowingly have been hurting me with the way that you have been treating each other. Don't get me wrong, I love to listen to your problems and comfort you, but it pains me to see what you put each other through. There is such needless berating of each other, and it tears me heart apart. Although you may be my 'best friend,' I still have a strong connection with your significant other. I care for you all so much more than you know, and hearing about someone baggin on somebody else, or not telling the other pertinent information, or withholding information, it just hurts.
Anyway, up until this point, I didn't know how to classify your actions and behaviors, I didn't know where they came from, and I couldn't for the life of me figure out why you could have something, adn i couldn't, but I've finally figured that out too. I now know why your relationships didn't work or aren't working and I knwo Why I havn't had one.
Me? I'm picky, adn that's that. Not about looks, or job, or friends or anything; I'm picky about a healthy relationship. I don't want to get into anything unless I can see that I am not going to have to sacrifice who I am for someone else, see that I can grow with this person, and someone who will retain who they are while they are with me. I don't want to date the same perosn today that I was with yesterday. I want them to grow qith me but also grow individually. I want them to have their own friends while not making me an alien. But most of all, I certainly dont want to be dating a male version of myself.
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