meh

So, I just found two web journals of friends i dind't know about. I ahte that, it makes me feel so unloved. I'm never informed of anything....ever. Most of the contacts I haev are either from kenna, neccesity, or begging. why do people not like to tell me things? I'm often "forgotten" or neglected to be invited places..... and i never do things. it'd be different if i couldn't do things. then i'd just be bitter. but i'm bitter and hurt. but what can i do....? yell at them for not telling me? no, i can't do that..... firstly i'm too nice, secondly....no.

irked.

love the word.. not all to relevaent, but whatever. at this point i dont care.

Halloween was yester day, and if that was the fact it would have sucked. I was supposed to get my license that day, but they cancelled all of those, so now i get it tuesday. Fucking DMV.... Then we went looking for pumpkins and crap.. didn't find any, even though Ralf's isn't on strick anymore. Went to lunch with my polo team.... I'm really gonna miss it when Elena and Katie graduate.. it'll make me sad. But lunch rocked. Then went for my paycheck... which wasn't there because i didn't call. They called me, how was i supposed to know to call them back? Retards..... The i went home and got ready for Robin's house, which was okay, but Robin's was a butt, but Kenna and i went trick-ot-treating longer with Matt, who i feel sorry for even though he has become quite the loser. I got so many compliments on my costumes.. it was great! kenna's was cute(she borrowed my wings..... and was a faerie. and a very cute on at that.) and Robins was awsome too. She was Robin(the super hero). All in all the day was pretty eh... halloween pretty much sucked. And there was no Chrys because she was kanoddling with the Kevles. But i dont blame her. So I'm in a pretty crapy mood today.. with nothing to do. w00t, except not.

yay for peer pressure!

except not, but i did cave in and get one myself . here you go:
Feen's Dream Journal

mrawr

blogger is beeing a butt again. what a surprize. >.> (i still love you!)

fire is bad

i forgot if i already posted this, so it's gonna get reitterated. Chad's house was burned down according to kenna. T.T That makes me so sad... Chad has been much more awsome this year than the last, so we all love him. This makes it vry sad, 'cause The Chad doesn't deserve this.....not at all. T.T


in other news, my face is freakin me out. The red scar that always on my nose, yeah, well it's not so red anymore. 0.o I dunno if it's from being in doors or I'm growin out of it... but it's pretty niffy to have my face be only 2 colors instead of 3.(if your confused by my 2 and 3 colors, here they are: my pale skin color, my brown frecle color, and the red i get when i'm snburned or my scar.)

lightswitch_raves - 6 days

urg. there's been drama with the kenna and the fred(separate and together) I'm not gonna type screts and stuff they confided in e with or anything. and as far as they know, i am not involved(which..i'm not. ao there.) but my advice to both is to get an impartial counselur for your problems. peer mentor..school counselor, or what ever. i think you need it, you guys. i say this out of friend ship and fear of losing one or both of you to bad stuff. love you guys!

happy, non-flamible stuff.

about nicoles b-day party last night. it was so fucking fun.^^ great stuff. We played pass the pig(w00t! new drama game). Truth or dare, and some other stuff. One of the games required me to get my back kiised by Jeff Z., and my self to kiss Richie's elbow. it was good stuff, and stroking whit's jonga, which is nothing new. adn then LotR! so i'm all kinds of hopefull, happy, wistful, and depressed. go figure.

FIIIIIIIIRRRRRRRREEEEEEE!!!!!!!

yes, there is a fire(multiple actually) burning just a few miles away from the commmunity where we live. we getta start packin crap.. talking to two of my best buddies on aim, and their families are gettin ready to split too. funn stuff. i should pack, but i have too much i dont wanna leave...... my books, my drawings, my projects..... T.T i dont wanna leave them!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's l;ike a sci fi movie........ not fun.