meh

So, I just found two web journals of friends i dind't know about. I ahte that, it makes me feel so unloved. I'm never informed of anything....ever. Most of the contacts I haev are either from kenna, neccesity, or begging. why do people not like to tell me things? I'm often "forgotten" or neglected to be invited places..... and i never do things. it'd be different if i couldn't do things. then i'd just be bitter. but i'm bitter and hurt. but what can i do....? yell at them for not telling me? no, i can't do that..... firstly i'm too nice, secondly....no.