*sigh*

i have been relizing how many people are going to graduate this year whom i'm going to miss very much... and also how many aren't whoom i dont even want to associate with right now. it kinda makes me sad that i'm currently not planning to keep in touch with some of my closest friends.... eergg. i am so mad at some of them.... i just cant believe it. you think you know someone, and then it turns out you do. you can read them liek a book. but it's one of those books that is like watching a train wreck and can't turn away. how sad is that? but the worst thing is i dont even think they know.... and the thiings i think about them is horrible.(they're not mean horrible, it's just that I cant believe i would think them) augg. and the worst part is, i dont think i even care. i dont know how to react anymore. I react the way i think i should, but it doesn't seem right. and it's confusing to me... but i'll have to jsut sort these things out in my head.

errg. thne there was three.

yeah, i'll get to that later in the post....

so... i was pretty much abandoned at lunch. Robina nd Shane wandered off(like always, so i wasn/'t bugged.) then kenna and fred went away.... and i relized that i knew nobody there. and i ate my food for 15 mintues contemplating what to do. luckily Robin and Shane came back. I felt better. then deanna showed up, which was great 'cause that was the only other place i felt like i could go. so when robin and shane left again, i followed deanna to her watering hole where there was a nicole and whitney, who are all BOYFRIENDLESS!!!!(not true, whitney's is just in sacremento... but thats beside the fact. he was not present.) I had an excelent last 5 minutes of lunch.

arrived at 5th, kenna was no where to be seen. didn't really bother me,'cause i'm not exactly on good terms with her now.(but not bad either) i talked to katie and it made me happy. then kenna did show up with a shane about 5 mintues in to class. told her what happened at lunch, she appologized, and it stung. i hate when she does that... because it means nothing and she's just gonna turn around and do it again. and there was nothing to appologize for. meh. robin had just finished talking to kenna about what her and i were talking about earlier, which was the dumpage of roy and the going out-age of asain fred. and this brings me to why i'm not happy with them(less happy with kenna and fred seeing as i talk to them online all the time and it person..... roy i think has just forgotten me. but he'll remember soon enough.) there were three, and not a single one of them told me. roy told robin, and thats how it trickled out. nobody was quite to happy with her, mostly for not telling. and all i haev to say about the situation is "greg." nothing more. shane will know what i mean. and so would amber c. if she wasn't down south.... i really miss her now. i want her back. T.T

mmmmm.....functions.

so, my blog looks like it hasn't been updated in a while.... but it really has. why the post aren't showing? i haven't a clue.*shrug*

gaia is hatful towards me. it is.

i found out some crazy chick tried to kill my dad once. and he lived in a van down by thge river.... i mean bay.0.o

i dont have much to say.. kinda tired... only 8-ish.. meh. have to get up at 5:30 tomorrow. errgg.... oh, and i love the way nobody cared about my illness.

i also love how no one ever sees my away messages.. they're great, but i'm always here.... poo. now i'm gonna do english project! whoo!