Feeling a little better

My dads making my brother take me to Pirates tomorrow. Still didn't see them today, but I suppose it's better than nothing.

Talked to Shane. Made me feel 100% better. Thanks bud, I needed it. :) Cna't wait to see the great state of Utah!

This is not turning out to be a good weekend

I still havn't seen Pirates... adn the more the now evening rools on, is begingin to look like a much bleaker prospect. Chris has not yet called, nor been online.I have no way of getting in touch with that boy. My mom is too tired to go with me, my brother is no where to be found, and I am making a bee-line to my next breakdown in 2 days. Las night was because of tiredness, today will be out of despair.

So why don't I call anyone? Because deep down I still have that gut-renching feeling that if I do call, they are either not going to pick up or not want to talk to me. I also feel that all my friends will recognize this movie as something they should call me to see if they want to see it with some one, or sould invite if they can because of my feelings towards pirates. However I also feel like they will be to slow to recognize this and by the time they think of it they will have already seen the movie.


And so begins the break down.

Pirates

didn't even go opening day. I am a pirate failure. I hate myself.


I'm not seeming to have a good evening.

I hate it.

Turtle and Dolphin

Still missing in action. It's begining to get to me. A little girl came in to work today looking for her gold dolphin bracelet. We had it. I really miss my necklace and rings. I've found two subs for my most used ring fingers... but they are no where near the same. :(

The Fourth

I worked. It was crazy. We had to institute the 'one patron out/one patron in' system. It was great! Russ was kind enough to bring a barbie for us to have a BBQ with... adn then let me turn off the BBQ. Unfortunatly the while the 'off' switch was clearly label, where I was to turn that too wasn't. So I set the remaining sausages one fire and almost the trash can! WOuldn't have looked so great great.... Jeff kept harrasing me about him only getting one hotdog, so when he pretended to try and push me into the water, and I said I'd take him with me, Jazzy Jeff not so much threw, but droped me in the pool. In my uniform and hideously 5 year old red suit. I really need to get a new one. The one I bought doens't fit me; and I think it looks really bad. Blech. But the rest of my day was peacful; dinner at home. FIrst year we decided to not watch the fire works. We were all way to tired. (Except for pops, all he did was videotape my brothers football camp)

Stressing over Pirates because right now, it's not happening on opening night whitch is really, really bothing me. I really had my heart set on seeing it then; but I simply can't if I'm working at 5:15 the next morning, and the again at 10 that morning. There is just no possible way. My mom said she'd help me try and find a sub; but on such short notice for such an un-attractive shift does not look good. It does not look good for the Rae Simmons. I may even loose sleep thinking about this one. Honestly.

On the up side I may have found people to live with next semester. Hopefully they're not trailing me along as a back up plan. That would royally piss me off; since that's what happened before. BUt I don't think this chick would do that unless she was serious.

I hate myself.

And for good reason. I managed to lose not only my prized turtle necklace... but also the three rings I had with it. For some idiotic reason I felt it necessary to remove said jewelery from my moms backpack for fear of forgetting, or them falling out of the pack. Unfortuntaly, for reasons unknown to me or my mother, I did not put said jewelery on, but left it in my lap, as I drove away for a healthy lunch at Jimbo's...Naturally! But between the time that I left my mothers pool post-swim, and when we got out at Jimbo's...Naturally! pre-feeding, I no recollection of where the jewelery went too. Not in my purse. Not in her purse. Not in her car. Not on my neck and fingers.

Now to spend $30 running ads in the classifieds of the two local papers in Carmel Valley.....

Shitfaceassholebitchcowbastardcocksuckingmotherfucker.