And another one bites the dust.

Our top rower left. I am sad to say that I had nothing to say in the matter... I didn't know what was going on or what the situation was and honestly didn't feel like I deserved to have an opinion. Sounds bad, but it's true. I have been so badly displaced that girls I was in charge of last year now see me as a naive underling who needs all the help and coach that they can offer. I dont, but it pisses me off that no one besides Carla sees me as a part of varsity. I know I havn't done much to put myself out there as a varsity memeber of this team since my demotion, but they really havn't tried to include me either. If there is one thing I have relized in the past few weeks is that although you may be used to something, it can still hurt. I'm used to being forgotten and left behind and left out, and now although it doens't bother me there is still something in the back of my head that says: "Owch." What more can I do short of inviting myself over and into other peoples lives? I didn't want this to be an emo post. FAILURE.

I just feel like I should have stood up for her. I know I didn't have any reason too, and I certainly didn't stand against her, but I feel I should have said something after Carla. I should have said that they were all being sissies, and cheap, and cowardly. But I didn't, I sat there quitely, at least making eye contact with whoever was talking so they knew I was listening and hearing everything. Guess this can go on my list of things I need to work on for myself. Standing up and saying how I feel without worrying what the outcome will be.

Oh well. Sorry Allie, I know what it's liek to have something metaphorically taken away from you. It's something you can't get back and damned if it doesn suck. I just wish I had had a Carla there when it happened to me.

Last class of the year!

Le W007! Fo'sho! Ohmigosh! Sorry, slighty spazzy, it's past my bed time and I am working on holiday cd's for YOU! They are gonna rock hard core. (quite literally for the boys)

I buned myself on the toaster over today. Right above the knuckle on my left ring finger. Smooth I know.

Breakfast at 6 am tomorrow morning. Why you ask....? Because it is crew. And I live for crew. I'm fairly sure that if the Boat House Caught on fire Kay and I would be the first 2 idiots down there trying to carry the Gold Member out of it. Then we'd probably go for the Your Mama.... because she just holds so many memories. I'm special, I know.

I've also decided that Kay is that one friend you have who drags you everywhere adn makes you do things with them all the time. I have also decided that is is a friend type that I am desperatly missing. Good timimg Kay! (3 night sin a row she has drug me out of my apparentment for food or shopping. What will she do when I go home? Who knows!)

Oh, and also, The Muppets are pretty much the best thing in the world. No joke. I'd probably marry them if I could. But that would be not only weird adn awkward, but I'm fairly sure that it's illegal. Wow. Late nights and working on presents all day makes for interesting blogs. Cool. Love me for it!

My stomach and back are breaking out like crazy!

in freckles!!!!! It's weird. These are the 2 areas that get no sun so I can't figure out how they are multiplying! Oh well, I guess lifestyle, career and biology are finally catching up with me. Hurrah!

I had some other junk to write, but this was 2 days ago when I had this window open for the first time. I've been a little busy. Had my first final today, I think I did good, I know I at least did better. WIsh I had taken this much time in the begining of the semester because then I might have gotten that 4.0 I've been aiming for since 6th grade. :( Guess there is always next semester!