Even though I've been wearing them for over 10 months, and I made them last winter, I am still getting compliments on my blue wave shoes when I wear them out. From people I see all the time. And it's not like I save them for special occasions either, if its tennis shoes I wear it's those. I never wear my chucks anymore, and I absolutly detest wearing my running shoes anywhere but Crew. (I also think those are screwing my feet up..... need some actual running shoes.) But this has nothing to do with my emotastic mood. But it is funny, because I thought I'd be coming back with all kinds of good feelings with all the thoughts that were going through my head.
I went to a BBQ at the Boathouse tonight for members of the club and the college teams. Not to many showed except for a ahndful of the faithful boys, the coaches, Elena and I, 2 novices that left early, and Alyssa showed up eventually. It was smal, but we had fun. Good group talking, good fun. I went by myself, and I was way proud that I managed to walk in there all on my own when I expected to be the only one to have shown up yet. I was also proud that I managed to have a decent conversation with Elena and Alyssa. Or anyone there for that matter.
But when I got in my car and drove away I couldn't help but feel a little bad. I'm not sure why, at all. It may have something to do wiht me being tired, but that is rarly the case. Maybe it's a combination of hermit-esque behavior, paired with missing John, and the haning out that used to go on back home, and a fmaily to be hermit-like with and a dog to chill with. Slightly homesick I suppoose, but I don't ever get the traditional homesick feeling. But then I don't generally have the correct reactions to things right off the bat. I have to give it a few days, or weeks, to sink in. :
I'm a litte nervous with Novice Fest tomorrow, I don't want to be the same ol' wall flower I generally am at parties. I don't want to ride the coat tails of any of the others gals. Hopefully my picture taking strategy wiht prevail once again. Guess we'll see. At least I don't feel so emo any more.
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