i have relized that i am depressed. i think it's mostly because i feel i have wasted most of my time at school doing stuff that really wasn't worth it*cough*ART!!!><*cough* I took that my freashman year instead of drama.... and now i really regret it. I mean, i really didn't get anything out of that class except some really nice art that i wasn't even givin the proper praise for. They were, if not the best in the class, at least in the top 5. But i never got better than an 8(equivalent to a B-) and it pisses me off. I'm a damn good artist, but when i dont get the proper inspiration, or credit it royally pisses me off and makes me not feel like doing it any more. and then that makes me pissed off. wtf? I hate it. I loved my art classes with Billy... they really were good for me and i enjoyed them and got a lot out of them. I said I'd be back in a month.... that was 10 months ago. 0.o oops. I've been planning on going back...but just kinda haven't. I want to draw more... but can't. Why? I have not fucking idea. And that ticks me off. Really.



But anyway, instead of taking an art class that was taught out of a book(a BOOK! you cannot teach art out of a book!) And it was complete crap....really it was. I could have spent that time in drama(Which i enjoy, so it wouldn't matter if i didn't get anything out of that. i hated my art teacher, and still believe she knows nothing. Whereas i have great respect for my drama teacher, and like her very much.) I'm going into advanced drama next year..... i will be in plays, and i will have fun!>< I am also not dealing with any sport but water polo now. seriously, i cannot stand the people in the other sports, how they act or behave.



But thats just me blowing steam.... i really like my friends, even though i dont think i hang out with them enough. but theres not much i can do about that. I never do anything, and they never invite me to do stuff. eh. oh, and my computer died, or at least it's modem. it makes me sad....it has almost NO purpose now.........none. T.T