Waka in the Sky

This song pretty much sums up my feelings at the moment, and it's just so beautiful to. If oyu havn't seen Whale Rider yet, you really need to.

I am feeling turbulence with Crew right now. How I am acting with it is just like in high school, and I dont like it. It why I'm not an actress. It's why I quit polo. It's why I don't call people on the phone. It's why I've only ever been in one relationship. It's why I am where I am. It's why I moved away. It's why I didn't move father. It's why I havn't done anything with my life yet. It's why i dont have a job. It's why I want to go home. It's why I don't wan't to wake up tomorrow because I know I'll go to crew and Carla will be a better coxswain than me. It's why I write in this blog. It's why I havn't called you back. It's why I hate the word emo. It's why I paided an ungodly amount of money to be in a sport that I don't even know if I plan on staying with. It's why I love Native American history, It's why I only have a few close friends. It's why I only hag with a select group of friends. It's why I dont ask for gas money. It's why I listen to the music I do. It's why I draw. It's why it's so hard for me to be an adult. It's why I want to go home. It's why I want to be 5 again. It's why I listen to Go the Distance. And it's why every night I tell myself that I am going to have a fantastic day tomorrow and that I will get over all my fears and supersitious, superficial mind set.

It's why I wish I could be the girl in ghost world.