ugg... no title for rae today. her head is not up for such thought.

merg. today was rather a good day i would say.... and i was even complementing myself on how much better I am doing right now that i was doing thsi time last year. If your wondering how I measure this, I set a few goals up for me,(I've noticed that when i do this i seem to meet them even if I dont try much). I'm doing a fair share better, if i do say so myself. Lets explain. I do not have the horrible social phobia anymore(i do, but I manage to work past it. I try and stike up a conversation with anyone I can now. I did that at my interveiw. I endded up wiaiting with this girl I met on my way out of the interveiw for 2 hours while she waited for he dad to pick her up. She was really nice, I kinda wish i got her e-mail.) I am also a bit more confident, and more people are letting me be a part of their groups(wether i'm forcing myself in, or they are letting me in I dont know, but I haev more people to talk to and i am not soly dependant on Chrys anymore.) I can make an ass out of myself again, that can be good or bad. Even though I had a boyfriend last year, I believe i haev progresed more. I still, however, probly wouldn't go to the prom if i was asked, I'm still iffy on the dressing up thing. A little uncofrtable for me.

And yet right now I feeel like crap, probly my empathy for my good friends because i was reading their xanga(i dislike xanga with a passion). But, ack, I dont know. It's something hard for me to explain. It's really weird, I haev a problem with vocabulary. merg... I'm bad at thsi... I think I need to write on paper how i feel. And I also think i'll update my dream journal 'cause I had one freak of a dream this morning.